dog day sunrise

There's an opportunity staring me in the face and I don't know if I can grab it. I don't know if I've got what it takes and I'm terrified. Why is it my response to opportunities is fear.

I just don't know if I've got what it takes and obviously the stakes would be very high and I've got so much to prove, to myself, to my parents and what if I fuck up oh god.

You know what? I've decided, I just decided. If I fuck up, then I'm not meant to be a nerd goddess; if I fuck up it's barista time.

Holy shit The Game Has Changed literally just popped up on my randomizer.

Yes, I believe in coincidence. I believe in the innate wizardry of math and odds-making and the sharp-tongued palaver of careful statistics. It's science.

I think I'm supposed to at least throw my hat into the ring.

Now, this I can do.