Do-Over (and Over)

Here I am again.

Got my first ever job, did it all by myself, and here not six months later going to get another, bigger, better job.

Only, I'm getting it in no small part because of who my parents are and what my parents want, and--I want it, too, I've always wanted to live in literal paradise and this is my chance. I'm not stupid.

But there are already caveats. I mean. I'm learning quickly (finally) that there are with everything.

I just don't know. I know this is what I want but I'm not sure this is how I wanted it.