but you've known it the whole time
Sep. 22nd, 2012 11:34 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
intaglioJesus, I don't care.
I can't seem to do anything about driving, so, whatever. I flat out just got told that I'm not properly grateful and that I'm not acknowledging her enough and it's got to do with how I don't love myself or something, and I know she doesn't understand that I'm not really a person, that I don't feel things, that I just feel angry and tired and sick of her shit.
And then she does that thing where 'did we even achieve anything' well maybe if you would ever make up your mind where the fucking finish line is, I would know when I'm allowed to stop.
Maybe I'm not allowed to stop, maybe no one's ever allowed to stop, maybe we're all just supposed to hurtle toward a crash. At least it would wipe the slate clean.
I'll just compromise some more and be an adult about this; what else can I do.
God, once I have my own money, I won't have to do this anymore. Until then I'll write my little stories.
I can't seem to do anything about driving, so, whatever. I flat out just got told that I'm not properly grateful and that I'm not acknowledging her enough and it's got to do with how I don't love myself or something, and I know she doesn't understand that I'm not really a person, that I don't feel things, that I just feel angry and tired and sick of her shit.
And then she does that thing where 'did we even achieve anything' well maybe if you would ever make up your mind where the fucking finish line is, I would know when I'm allowed to stop.
Maybe I'm not allowed to stop, maybe no one's ever allowed to stop, maybe we're all just supposed to hurtle toward a crash. At least it would wipe the slate clean.
I'll just compromise some more and be an adult about this; what else can I do.
God, once I have my own money, I won't have to do this anymore. Until then I'll write my little stories.
